human sadness

somewhere along the way the wonder, excitement, curiosity, innocence, and magic of life is lost as the years pass in a life time... for most, it happens before puberty and for the rest, except for a very few, it happens before a person reaches the age of independent legal status in this culture... the few who hang on past that are either burned badly by the others or live in a delusional farce by luck and chance and circumstance (like great wealth or isolation) that protects them from the fear that grows to dominate most others and turn them into at best, insensitive self-destructive fools and at worst, murderers and those who glorify killing... and i wonder if anyone makes it through more than a few decades without losing the magic and without insulating themselves with delusion or circumstance...

here i am...