remember

the bored and the caring may find me, and hopefully one will understand... and caring enough to remind me, of the dreams i once had planned... to love and be loved forever, to share everything with the one, to know the moment is eternal, and we always have just begun... always only just beginning... living in the moment is as real as it gets... may i never stop caring, may i never forget... and may we share someday...

ridiculous drama

and when i ask who cares it doesn't matter who answers if i don't... and when i give it all away and let things spiral out of control and feel helpless it is only ridiculous drama i create within my mind... when will i learn to be silent... when will i remember who i am... when will i stop the idle babble... when will i stop wasting my hand... who cares, right?... what matters even more is... who understands?...

lonely times

i can distract myself for a while with food
or any other sensual pleasure
but there is still a loneliness deep inside
that no power on earth can measure

and some days are so lonely
it frightens others away
some days are so lonely
no one dares to stay
some days are so lonely
deeper than anyone will go
some days are so lonely
no one wants to know

i can turn on the tv and lose an hour
i can drink or do some drugs and lose a night
i can settle for a lighter kind of sharing
and have comfort for a while, but not delight
for the depths of caring know no limitations
life is pain and you can love it or you die
all the suffering you don't see is still out there
and if you don't feel it you've learned how to lie

remember boy,
you're gonna carry that weight
a long time

some days are so lonely
it frightens others away
some days are so lonely
no one dares to stay
some days are so lonely
deeper than anyone will go
some days are so lonely
no one wants to know

you can pretend you don't know
but the feeling has no where to go