this is the place

this is the place i come to express the sadness and loneliness and feelings of abandonment and being left out and being unappreciated and misunderstood and... what?... should i go to some place like eharmony or match dot com?... that is a laugh... a sad laugh at that... the pretense of romance packaged in questionnaires and corporate approval and people fall for it left and right... and it's not cheap either... but those places are not for the different... they are for those striving to conform... for those accepting the delusions...

and i am different... too different to be explained in words... and still i hope for someone who might understand... someone who might be able to share as i share...

lament and hope, the pendulum swings...

sigh...