devastating freedom

the freedom that comes from not working comes with a dichotomous challenge like a double edged swords... even if there is no need for income, there is the pleasure of free time vs. the potential for boredom, loneliness, lack of purpose, and devaluation... too much free time can get boring as most of the work is busy at work during the day... it can get lonely depending on shopping or other commerce for social interaction... few can attain and maintain high self-esteem without some regular validation from a successful experience... and then there is a social aspect of work, which may be far from ideal, but is consistent for 40 hours a week for most people and more for others...

add financial need to the mix and the stress deepens dramatically... wondering if bills can be paid is high stress... wondering if rent can be paid is seriously high stress... where a next meal will come from is profoundly high stress... it can drive some to illegal activities which compounds the risks of being income-less... so the freedom that comes from not working can be devastating...

it won't get devastating for me for a while, but draining savings slowly is stressful itself... it would be nice to have some wealthy caring people reading this, even one person wealthy enough to send some financial help, but the same question asked in this blog can be asked here... am i alone?...

wish this was a happier update... wish i was not alone... sigh and all that...

hope for better news next time...