the despair goes here?

maybe that's the reason for this blog as if every blog has a reason like every book has a theme and every cliche has a place in this world so all i need to do is find mine but until i do i can stumble into despair and this may be where it comes now (it's been a long time since we had a place for despair if you if you know what i mean or remember the beginnings (though the first online despairs were deleted by AT&T when they decided to deleted web pages even though i was still paying for web space, but that's another reason for despair of a different color) and so it goes (and you're the only one who knows)...

whatever, aye?...